Bee-Boppin

So, as much as I wish I could get my mind to focus on "other" things, I can't. So I will continue to do all these crazy things just to get my mind off of them.

I have my photography workshop next weekend, followed by a Lindsey visit (which of course, means a visit to the Monkey! and some much needed quality girl time!), then maybe a hair change. I haven't quite decided on if I should go dark yet. As soon as my hair appointment approaches, I always have these crazy ideas, that perhaps, the hair would be better off brown. And then it looks super good one day, when I'm not hot and sweaty and the humidity drops below 150%, and then I'm like, hey, being blonde isn't so bad.

I have had this problem for as long as I can remember. The not being able to make up my mind. I am so gung-ho about something, and then blah... I think of one thing that could happen, and I flip-flop like crazy. And it's not that I mean to, or want to... but some of the ideas that I have....oh I don't know.

I don't want to much get into the inner workings of my brain on the internet. I do know that there are a lot of things I want to do with my life.

Like going to Spain. Or better, living in Spain. Living in NYC. Taking a girls only trip for a week to the beach. Drive a Ferrari. Get published. Buy a pair of Jimmy Choo shoes....

The list goes on. And on... and on. I am almost 3 years away from being 30. Three years, and while I haven't accomplished much, I have, since my posting a year ago, completed one of my goals.

I ran a 5k. I ran two.

Addicted To Love

So I was just reading an article on cnn.com about how, psychologically, you can be addicted to love. When you're in it good, you are addicted in a good way, but getting rejected in love can have a serious effect on you.

And it got me thinking that that is pretty true! I remember a time where I fell for this guy. We had talked for about 8 months and had kissed and done all the fun physical stuff. And I just fell for him. Just fell for him hard....and I am one of those people, that doesn't necessarily abide by the "let him say it first," so I was stupid and said it first. That, and then....**crickets**...awww, but I was so young and dumb back then, I mean like 19...20, something like that. So I think you can be addicted to love, but also think it's easy to fall out of love with someone faster if they don't share the same feelings for you. So maybe if it is never going to happen, even if the addiction sucks worse, it's always just best to know.

So yes, I was severely addicted to him. I checked my phone like a crazy person, hoping he would have sent a text message, but all the while knowing that he was too busy for me. Love can be addicting....that's why they always say it hurts. But it was beautiful for those 8 months...completely perfect...everything from the first kiss to the last...from laying on his chest afterwards....to everything.

But when you're in it good, you're in it good. And I have it good now. Good enough that he lets me be me...and doesn't cringe when I'm a Landshark at a Jimmy Buffett show with my "fins to the left, fins to the right, you're the only bait in town." I love my babe. :)

Distractions

Have you ever just had so much on your mind that you will do anything to just keep your mind off whatever it is that you're thinking?

I have taken up photography.....and baking....and random on a whim trips to forget whatever the hell my brain has decided to stress about that day...

The good thing about all 3 of those things....is that they tend to work. Today, I am baking angel food cupcakes and key lime pie. Tomorrow, I am taking a random trip to see the Jimmy Buffett concert in Gulf Shores...something I didn't even have planned 24 hours ago.

I can't really talk about all that is going on in my life these days....I do feel pretty sad sometimes and hurt most of the time, but these small, but simple things tend to take my mind off of it if even only for a little while.

My camera has also decided that it needs a trip to Gulf Shores...and a healthy dose of steel drums, so it will be joining me tomorrow....maybe some pictures to post later....in the other blog. Oh and yeah...those New Orleans pictures will be coming soon.

Fish Eye Lens

So I found this thing that is super cool on Ebay. I was looking through just trying to see if I could afford any new lenses (not yet! those things are super pricey!!), and came across the FishEye. It says it's for panorama and the such, but it's just an attachment to your lens, and I'm hoping it does that whole bubble looking thing with pictures, because that is just the neatest thing ever.

I also found a website for wedding and engagement photography that is absolutely beautiful. The way she captures everything is just amazing, and makes me super jealous that she gets to go to all those beautiful weddings. Also makes me jealous because their dresses and decor are amazing. Making mine look blah and cliche. ..but that is something else all together.

The good thing about this fish eye lens that I saw...only $25!! I'm seriously thinking about heading over to ebay and doing that "buy now" thing.

I would love to come to a point where I get to do that every day for a living. I would love nothing more.