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I'm not feeling the creative vibe today, so hence the question mark. usually I can come up with something, either witty or some relevant to what I'm going to be talking about, but today, I just couldn't do it.

I have somewhat neglected my online world since being able to have off on sundays. I am feeling so many things right now about so many things, that I don't even know what to write or say or really even do. I had my first conference call, ever, last Friday. And I found out too late that my speaker phone did not work, so I made myself look like an idiot. Sometimes I wish I was good at something else besides truck work.

The invitations came yesterday, and they're perfect; just the way I wanted them. I have picked out the bridesmaids gifts, and the labels for the bags. The online world somehow makes everything a little less harsh, and I can't relinquish all sorts of details about my life on here, but the lost art of my journaling kinda died when Asshole Nick stole all of my journals, and I lost the will to write anyway.

Thinking about Things...

For Valentine's Day, in case any one was wondering, Bennett took me to Gian Marco's in Homewood. It is supposedly the best food in Birmingham, and I'm pretty sure it was. We stuffed ourselves, had wine, fried mozzarella with prosciutto in it ( sooo good!), main courses, and then of course dessert. Bennett told me not to worry about prices, so I didn't, although I have a tendency to always pick the cheapest thing anyway...mine was good; so was Bennett's. His was better....

So I'm still working on this new position that I have. I have a conference call with all the big cheeses tomorrow, and I'm a little bit nervous about it. They have given me a work cell phone. I'm way new to all this responsibility at work. And it's not like my title has changed; I just work some more, so maybe in a way that's my pay raise. Instead of taking out overtime all together, they just throw a couple hours my way and look the other way. Which is something I'm not really complaining about, because without my OT, money has been a little tight. It sucks getting used to something, and then them take it all away.

But the new job is going well, and I seemed to have gained a newfound respect from everybody. It was a little rough to begin with, but has gotten better, much better since last Friday. I guess I should be grateful that they finally think I'm capable of something. I just so hope that I don't let everyone down, because I don't know what job would come after this one. I guess if I fail, that makes me permanent MT, and I don't know how I feel about all that.

Anyway, I guess I'm a little tired, and I know it's only 8:45, but I do have a really important conference call tomorrow, and I'm supposed to make a list petitioned by the captain himself, so here I go. Maybe another glass of wine will help....

So tired

So at work, I have been placed in charge of a new pilot project. It is very time consuming and I am incredibly incredibly tired. I haven't been this mentally exhausted in quite some time; although the best part about this new thing....regular schedule!! Monday through Friday like normal work people! The bad part is being under that corporate microscope, and having every move monitored.

They sent us an email about social networking sites and being careful about what we put on them, so I won't divulge any secrets about what I'm actually doing there, but it is tiring. When they sent that email out, I tried to think if I had ever disgraced my place of employment on Facebook or Myspace. I don't think there are any truly embarassing pictures of me anywhere, and if there were, they have all been detagged. So I sit at work and wonder who is the main guy who messed up...

I mean there had to have been someone...maybe telling company secrets all on facebook, but I try my hardest to keep work out of facebook. I mean come on, I work all day, why would I want my one fun "social networking" site to be filled with that stuff?

Oh and another super duper thing...I have my own office now. It's basically a closet with no windows, but I do have my own room with a desk and a computer and a phone. No promotion or anything, just an addition to my status....Service guy said he was going to bring me a plant. Plants or good. I don't know how keen they are on me actually personalizing the place where I will be everyday, or how they feel about music...but I think I will try both to see what happens.

All good things have been happening: ordered invitations, had a fun mardi gras engagement party with super good hurricanes and got a few awesome presents, saw my little baby second cousin who is adorable and asked me to be his valentine...awwwww..

Speaking of Valentine's, Bennett has reservations at a fancy place, but won't tell me where. I've tried to guess but have been wrong every time...I wonder where I'm going...

30 Day Shred

Just a little reminder for me: Bennett and I were doing the 30 day shred by Jillian Michaels workout. Yesterday was the 7th day in a row I'd done it; Bennett did it once and he cannot walk today. Hehe. :)

Weight Obsessions

So, as I was doing what I do on Sundays, I was looking at people.com, and came across a story about Jessica Simpson, and her weight. People calling her fat? Are you serious? Jessica Simpson fat? This is what her sister said:

Ashlee Simpson-Wentz says people should leave her older sister Jessica alone. "I am completely disgusted by the headlines concerning my sister's weight," Ashlee, 24, writes on her blog after photos appeared of Jessica, 28, at the Radio 99.9 Kiss Country's annual Chili Cookoff on Sunday in Pembroke Pines, Fla. Under the headline, "Since when did a woman's weight become newsworthy," Ashlee says: "A week after the inauguration and with such a feeling of hope in the air for our country, I find it completely embarrassing and belittling to all women to read about a woman's weight or figure." She adds: "All women come in different shapes, sizes, and forms and just because you're a celebrity, there shouldn't be a different standard." The singer/actress says she wonders if people would make the same remarks to a wife, daughter, mother, grandmother or friend. "I seriously doubt it," she says. "How can we expect teenage girls to love and respect themselves in an environment where we criticize a size 2 figure? Now can we focus on the things that really matter."

There are so many things that are going on right now, and it really pisses me off that people are concerned with a woman's weight. I just don't understand why men aren't put under the same glass as women. WE are expected to diet and exercise and be skeleton skinny; but yet it's ok for a man to put on weight and not be criticized for it.

I have had an obsession with my weight since high school. This is not a secret to anyone, so I feel ok sharing it with everyone. It has gotten worse since I've gotten older, because it has gotten harder to diet and exercise with everything going on in the adult world, not to mention the worry about fitting into and looking great in a wedding dress.

It's time consuming and unfair. If the girl gains a little weight, so be it; It would be so nice to look like her, even a little bit.

Anyway, that's my rant for the day. I am done now. Happy super bowl sunday!