And I made it!!

You know.  3 weeks later, but I'm still pretty proud of myself for finally getting around to the last day.  Even though I'm pretty sure this will be the most in-depth of all the days.  I've been feeling really emotional lately.   And just been sort of in a yucky yucky rut.  I feel like everything in my life is so unfinished  There are so many loose ends floating around everywhere.

Ok....onto day 10.

10.  I am obsessive compulsive about my weight.  I was not the healthiest girl in high school, and lost a lot of weight, and ever since have developed probably an unhealthy fear of getting heavy again.

9.  When I get angry, I don't yell or scream, I get quiet.  Maybe for a day.  Sometimes more than that.

8.  Daisies are my favorite flower.

7.  I don't mind ironing.

6.  I love eating tortilla chips with sour cream.  Actually, I'll take just about anything with sour cream.

5.  Sometimes I wish I didn't know so much about flatbed trucking.

4.  I've had a guy break up with me because I knew more about sports than he did.  Yes, he said that.

3.  I love raw oysters.

2.  My favorite thing in the world is having my hair played with.

1.  I will probably never ever know what my true natural hair color is.  

So there ya have it.  Probably more than you ever wanted to know about me, in just over a little two to three weeks.  I don't even remember when I started this thing.  

Ugh, oh well. 

Getting There....

Ok, so maybe I've been putting off finishing this 10 day challenge, which has somehow turned into a three week challenge.  

I've been so distracted lately.  I've been putting a lot of work into the dance studio, as well as perfecting my dancing itself.  And making sure that my posture is perfect!  I mean, if you grow up with terrible posture, which I did (my dance teacher says it's because I'm tall and I was trying to make myself look shorter like everyone else....I don't think so...), it is sooooo hard to try to fix it.  

And on top of writing again, trying to fulfill my dream of being published, I am also trying to make sure that I'm not sucking at my day job.  Hmm, not sure if I'm doing them all perfectly, but oh well right?  

So here we go....again.

9.  Cheeseburgers.  Oh how much I love them.

8.  Interior decorating.  I know I'm not the greatest, but I am pretty good at making a house look lived in.

7.  School.  (I know, what a dork, but really, I do love it.)

6.  Reality TV.  Oh yes.

5. Dogs.  All dogs, especially mine.

4.  Being Southern.

3.  Football.

2.  Auburn University

1.  Family and friends.

Day 8....

So I'm getting through the days...just not in a nice complete order like I'd like. 

But you want to know something?

I have done every single photo-a-day for April so far!  April 10th.  10 pictures.  In a row.  No cheating, no taking doubles in a day. 

I am pretty impressed with my non-committal self. 

So there.

And with that...onto day 8!

8.  Dying of blood clots.

7.  Speaking in public.

6.  Cockroaches.  Ugh.  Super downfall of the south and living near any trees...and in a house that is cooler than the outside.  Trust me, they only come in one size down here....nuclear.

5.  My parents dying.  And my sister dying. 

4.  Any nail falling off.  Don't ask.  Big fear.

3.  Regrets.  Yes, that's right.  I fear regrets.  And I think that's totally reasonable.

2.  Thunderstorms.  Yep that's right.  I'm a 28 year old who is terrified of them, and would still sleep on my parents floor if I lived with them.

1.  Flying.  I absolutely hate to fly.  I will do it.  But I hate it.  One of these days I will ask for medication.   

Of course these are my fears that I'm willing to share with the world.  There are, of course, deeper ones, but I'm a little afraid to go too in depth.  You get the point.  :)

Whew...that was deep.

Realization

Please tell me if I'm overreacting.  I don't think so.  I think lately that I have been getting more and more mad, and a lot easier than normal.

I hate more than anything putting so much work into something, and then having it blow up in my face. ..

Take this for instance....

I am not the maid of honor in an upcoming wedding that I'm in, yet I'm planning the bachelorette party. In New Orleans...when all was planned, a total of five people were going.  And that's fine.  It's a "destination bachelorette," and I'm totally okay with it being a smaller group of people.  But don't tell me that you're not going two weeks before it's planned, after I had already changed the date AND found a cheaper place to stay.  Needless to say...I'm a little angry.  

But I guess there's not too much I can do except vent about it.... and move onto Day 7.

7.  I want another dog.

6.  I want true love.

5.  I want to not live in Alabama.

4.  (I'm aware of how corny this is before even saying it)  I want everyone to stop caring so much about everyone else...ie, about who everyone else marries, about who does what with their own bodies.  It drives me crazy.

3.  I want to be a professional ballroom dancer.

2.  I want to live closer to my family.

1.  I want my student loans to finally be paid off.

Day 6

So my dad said he checked out my blog...

And he commented on the color of my hair...

Not my awesome writing, or anything, but the color of my hair.  He hates it blonde.  Like hates it hates it.  But oh well.  I'm 28 and still disappointing my parents!!  At least I'm gainfully employed!!

Today has been another frustrating day.  I feel like I have so much on my plate at one time.  I would say that I should give up blogging, but I did that and didn't really like it too much.  I know that I don't talk about much of importance on here, but it's still a nice break from thinking about moving flatbed freight...

Anyway, onto Day 6...

6.  Waukesha, Wisconsin  -- the place where I was born.  I will always have a special love for Wisconsin, and always do claim it as my home town when people say I don't sound like I'm from the South.

5.  Aruba.  I love Aruba.  I don't care what anyone says about the place.  It's absolutely beautiful, and home to one of the greatest bartenders and free bar food around (yum yum mini eggrolls).  

4.  Linz Am Rhein, Germany -- where I spent a summer as a foreign exchange student.  Beautiful...and I know most people don't think of Germany as beautiful, but that is where my people came from, and it was actually pretty awesome to be able to drink vodka at 16.

2. Auburn, AL  --- really?  do I need to say anything else?  Loveliest Village on the Plains... WDE!

1.  New Orleans.....  my most favorite place on Earth.  As if that was a huge secret to anyone....  here are a few pics from my last adventure there (I get a bachelorette adventure in 2 weeks!  So excited!!!)

1st pic - Lucy's Retired Surfer Bar

2nd pic - Cooter Browns -- home of the longest beer list I've ever seen.

Day 5

Wow, so here we are at Day 5.  By the way, I have kept up with my April photo-a-day.  A whole 3 days.. I am so proud!

I have actually been pretty busy lately.  I have been going non-stop at work, and have been crazy busy preparing for my next ballroom competition.  I have found myself getting more and more into dance, and I find that the confidence is coming easier now.  I have more than practiced my Cuban movement (those child-rearing hips have come in good for something) and my arm and leg movements (ditto on the long limbs).    

I also found myself getting frustrated today when I couldn't control every aspect.  You can't control people.  You can't even control how they feel about you; even if you try to talk yourself into thinking you can.  In the back of your mind, you always already know.

Your gut always tells the truth.  Even if you choose to ignore it.  

5.  Chicken - lo- mein.  I know that it's terrible for you, but I love Chinese, and I really only have cravings to eat it when I'm home alone.  With Sex and the City 2.  And an US Weekly.

4.  UAB sushi roll - from Pacific Rim in Birmingham.  Holy deliciousness.  

3.  Pulled pork BBQ sandwich - Come on . I am from the South!!

2.  Cold cheese  -  Oh, so cliche you say, since you're from Wisconsin.  Whatever, I don't care.  I love cheese. And I'm pretty much not averse to any cheese.  Except  blue cheese.  Ick.

1.  Pizza.  My absolute favorite.  I can eat it all day every day, no questions asked.  And as long as you don't throw anchovies on it, I'm perfectly ok.

Also, if you read this and are using a great photo editor, please let me know.  I have been on the search for one for a really long time.

Thanks!!

At Life...I suck

I am so not good at keeping promises.  I can't even get through a 10 day challenge without quitting.  So what did I decide to do?  Oh, photo a day for the month of April.  Guess who's done the first two days without quitting?!  

That's right...

This girl!

I'll figure I'll post all of them eventually, you know toward the end of the month (unless I quit, which has good probability)

So, I will, get on with Day 4 of the 10 Day Challenge (ahem, they didn't lie about the challenge part).

1. The Last Lecture Randy Pausch

2.  The Da Vinci Code (actually, I'll go with anything Dan Brown here, because I can't ever put his books down...they are amazing!!)

3.  Little Women  Louisa May Alcott

4. Good in Bed Jennifer Weiner (again with reading all of her books.  I just love a girl writer that can actually relate to other girls)

(google images)

Day 2

1. The Doors "Riders on the Storm"

This has been my song as long as I can remember. This was playing in the house when we were little. It was even in the background during one Christmas video. I don't know why it's my song, it doesn't make any sense, but it is what is it.

2. Citizen Cope "Holdin On"

One of the sexiest songs I know. It has good memories, and I love Citizen Cope and his dreads. Sorry I don't get deeper than that, but it is what it is.

Check em out.

10 Day Challenge

So to force myself to write, I decided to take on this 10 Day Challenge. At least it'll force me to write for at least 10 days in a row....or so I think.

Here we go!!

Day 1:: Picture of Myself

This is my favorite picture of me by far. I love how simple it looks, with my hair in it's natural state. Now, most people know that I'm not a "natural" blonde, but I feel my best when my hair is blonde. And of course there's nothing than an Auburn anything.

Now I will explain where the picture came from. There was a Living Social deal for a Boudoir Photo Shoot, and this is as un-racy as they get. And I love it, and have no problem sharing this one.

The others, not so much.