So there comes a time in everyone's life when you have to get rid of what is bad for you and keep what is good. And I have been part of a toxic friendship now for 15 years, and I am done with it. I am not drunk, but I have finally started to think clearly.
When you have someone in your wedding, and then everyone asks you what that person's problem was because they clomped down the aisle and then didn't smile, then that pisses me off. If this person didn't want to be in the wedding, then they should have just said so. I asked this person to be in the wedding because of our past and I thought I would regret not doing it, if I didn't do it. Granted that I didn't know that this person said things behind my back, be it about the dress or about my character, before she drove to be in the wedding. And if this person's feelings were so strong about it then she should have not come to the wedding. It's seriously frustrating to me that someone who has known me less time, C, could care so much more than the person who has known me for forever.
C came to the wedding showers; C basically threw me my bachelorette party, and C was there when I needed her. But where was this other person? The person who was supposed to know me for 15 years and supposed to know everything about me? Nowhere. Didn't come to the showers and definitely didn't come to the bachelorette party. I guess I'm more sad and disappointed than angry about it. There's nothing I can do about it; I just thought that she would have been there more for me during this super happy time in my life. But I thought wrong; and if those things she said behind my back were actually true than I wouldn't care so much. And I would stick around to my boyfriend and forget everyone in the world.
But I don't. I love my Dan and Caitlin; and I love my sister, and I love my Robin. I love my Kelly at work, and I love my Alex and Katy. I do not forget my friends, but need to let go of the ones that hurt me and continue to not give a damn about it.
So I will raise my Target brand cherry limeade and forget about all of it. Because from this day on, I am done.
The Joys of Marriage
1.8.09
So usually when people write about marriage they write bad things about how the physical part of it has deteriorated and how the person changes over night into something that they weren't the month before you got married, but I am here to set the record straight.
None of this has happened. It is almost the exact same as exclusive dating. Granted, you can't just "break up" if something goes wrong, and divorce isn't something that people, poor people like me, want to deal with. Being 25 and divorced doesn't sound as great as 25 and still looking. The only difference that I have noticed is the difficulty in signing "redacted" every day, and the difficulty I have to look forward to of going to actually legally change my name. As I haven't done that yet. And since they closed all the satellite offices in Jefferson County, I have a full day of waiting at either the downtown courthouse, or the Bessemer office, neither of which is a fully tantalizing offer, and which requires me to use my last vacation day to do so.
And the reason why all of this has to happen so fast is because all the loan docs have to be in my newly married name, or else it will be a pain in the ass to change from "Redacted" to Redacted" in the future. For future reference and in case anyone cares, the name will now be "redacted", instead of "redacted". For some reason C made a great point when she said if you ever have children they may want to look up their lineage. And I'm sort of attached to the "redacted" name.
So we did in fact buy a house. It's beautiful and I can't wait to move into it. It's a cute quirky little house with a double-sided fireplace and an exposed brick wall, with a fully updated kitchen. We close in August and have the entire month of September to move in. So if anyone has any extra boxes, that would be a good thing to know about....
But anyway, the marriage thing is great. There is nothing different; I won't go into detail about how things haven't changed, but well you know. Things are great as usual. As great as they are though, sometimes I'm forced to think how things would have turned out if we had never met. I mean, what if Bennett had gone to Samford, or if I would have stayed in school in Georgia. But I guess that's what wasn't planned for us and that's why we both did go to Auburn and did meet . We were eventually meant to be together...and that's how it ended up.
None of this has happened. It is almost the exact same as exclusive dating. Granted, you can't just "break up" if something goes wrong, and divorce isn't something that people, poor people like me, want to deal with. Being 25 and divorced doesn't sound as great as 25 and still looking. The only difference that I have noticed is the difficulty in signing "redacted" every day, and the difficulty I have to look forward to of going to actually legally change my name. As I haven't done that yet. And since they closed all the satellite offices in Jefferson County, I have a full day of waiting at either the downtown courthouse, or the Bessemer office, neither of which is a fully tantalizing offer, and which requires me to use my last vacation day to do so.
And the reason why all of this has to happen so fast is because all the loan docs have to be in my newly married name, or else it will be a pain in the ass to change from "Redacted" to Redacted" in the future. For future reference and in case anyone cares, the name will now be "redacted", instead of "redacted". For some reason C made a great point when she said if you ever have children they may want to look up their lineage. And I'm sort of attached to the "redacted" name.
So we did in fact buy a house. It's beautiful and I can't wait to move into it. It's a cute quirky little house with a double-sided fireplace and an exposed brick wall, with a fully updated kitchen. We close in August and have the entire month of September to move in. So if anyone has any extra boxes, that would be a good thing to know about....
But anyway, the marriage thing is great. There is nothing different; I won't go into detail about how things haven't changed, but well you know. Things are great as usual. As great as they are though, sometimes I'm forced to think how things would have turned out if we had never met. I mean, what if Bennett had gone to Samford, or if I would have stayed in school in Georgia. But I guess that's what wasn't planned for us and that's why we both did go to Auburn and did meet . We were eventually meant to be together...and that's how it ended up.
Hmmm..
16.7.09
That's right. I couldn't be more creative with the title. There is so much going on, and I'm kinda upset that I haven't kept this blog updated as much as I would like. But I am a married woman now, and loving it. It just seemed to get better, plus the honeymoon was a blast!
But that is not the reason why I am writing. I don't write when good things happen, only bad, and of course this one happens to take place at the land of yellow. So I have a semi-ally who works upstairs, and she deals with lease people, so she's in a different department than me, BUT she is a girl, and she can relate to me. She is friends, good friends, with the captain (who for some reason doesn't like me and makes it quite obvious). My only ally in rental was for some reason fired a couple months ago, and now I'm to fend for myself. So anyway, a couple days ago, the captain asked me to do something; granted I know when he asks you to do something, you do it. BUT, I am already being pulled every which way, and having to do everything else for every other location, plus the one I'm working at, so I forget. But not completely forget, just forget to do it before I leave.
So the captain feels the need to tell my upstairs ally that "you need to tell your girl Laura that when I ask her to do something, she needs to do it." And I'm sitting there astounded. Every day I walk into that place, and every day that I have walked into that place since the day I started, I have given that place my all. I have worked 6 day work weeks; I have ran locations all by myself. I have worked late, worked different locations, taken on new projects, but still can't seem to make my way ahead of anybody.
I'm not going to complain about my job, because I am thankful that I have one, but it does get seriously frustrating when I am pulled in to speak about this.
But it is nice having a good home life. I have the best husband in the world; we have fun almost every night. Sometimes, it is nice to almost have it all.
But that is not the reason why I am writing. I don't write when good things happen, only bad, and of course this one happens to take place at the land of yellow. So I have a semi-ally who works upstairs, and she deals with lease people, so she's in a different department than me, BUT she is a girl, and she can relate to me. She is friends, good friends, with the captain (who for some reason doesn't like me and makes it quite obvious). My only ally in rental was for some reason fired a couple months ago, and now I'm to fend for myself. So anyway, a couple days ago, the captain asked me to do something; granted I know when he asks you to do something, you do it. BUT, I am already being pulled every which way, and having to do everything else for every other location, plus the one I'm working at, so I forget. But not completely forget, just forget to do it before I leave.
So the captain feels the need to tell my upstairs ally that "you need to tell your girl Laura that when I ask her to do something, she needs to do it." And I'm sitting there astounded. Every day I walk into that place, and every day that I have walked into that place since the day I started, I have given that place my all. I have worked 6 day work weeks; I have ran locations all by myself. I have worked late, worked different locations, taken on new projects, but still can't seem to make my way ahead of anybody.
I'm not going to complain about my job, because I am thankful that I have one, but it does get seriously frustrating when I am pulled in to speak about this.
But it is nice having a good home life. I have the best husband in the world; we have fun almost every night. Sometimes, it is nice to almost have it all.
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